euphorically – disphoric

hey, what you wanna say to me?
hey, i'm here! you. using all of us
wasting our lives. me. looking for you
breaking my hands, breaking all knives.
i pity us the salad days, the past far gone
through trembling hands. the flags we captured
they all bleached.
our fortresses are turning into pits.
take in sails, the flood subside.
wait for rainfall. pray for god.