Black feather
On the carpet
In Vivien’s back room
Where you kept me warm
A glimpse that one day
I’ll believe in
Someone accepting
My physical form
If I wasn’t so broken
You could have me
Body and soul
Body and soul
But for now
Just take this
A body unacceptable and abandoned unacceptable and abandoned
But you were so unwavering
Such a pretty boy
Just a sweet prince
A knight in black lipstick holding me down
And when I couldn’t breathe
I watched you transform
Into a flock of ravens
Not long after sunrise
You were showing me
Divinity
What We are
In camaraderie
A world within
The sweetness of your skin
Escape
Everywhere inwards-pointing and
Always pointing in
So I remembered
Every word you said
Breadcrumbs leading me back
To the exit you showed me
Points on my body
Unhealed tattoos
Soft hips soft lips
Incantations
Between the carpet and your claws and the caws
Between sleeps
Sudden wingbeats