Can I give me love

Said I’m fine, but I’ve been hidin’  
shadows on the wall, they do the talkin’  
ceiling got a pattern that I memorize  
but I still act surprised like it’s the first time
I made friends with the quiet  
watchin’ raindrops run like they’re tryin’  
to beat each other to the end of the glass  
like I ever had the nerve to finish somethin’ that fast
Woke up with my shoes still on  
guess I’ve been runnin’ even when I’m gone  
kept a list of things I’d never do  
then checked ‘em off, one by one, like I meant to
She said I used to smile more  
but I don't remember what that was for  
if I ever find it, I’ll keep it small  
so it doesn’t get caught in the middle of it all
Maybe I’m the echo in a room with no sound  
Tried to leave a mark but I just traced it out  
Sleepin’ with the blinds up, hopin’ for a sign  
but all I ever get is a flicker in the sky
They say you grow up when the pain gets quiet  
I guess I’m still a child, guess I never tried it  
I built a house with my regrets inside it  
hung my favorite fears like portraits, I don’t hide it
Feelin’ like a letter that I never sent  
talkin’ to myself like I’m heaven-sent  
playin’ every role like a silhouette  
but never knew the script, just the instrument
Let me give you what you asked for  
a seat by the window, a closed door  
the sound of your breath when you want more  
a mirror that forgives what you ignore
Whoa, whoa, tell me what it means  
To be soft and still be clean  
If I’m cryin’ when I sleep  
Is it dreamin’ or is it bleed?
Whoa, whoa, tell me what it means  
To be soft and still be clean  
If I’m cryin’ when I sleep  
Is it dreamin’ or is it bleed?
I just wanna feel it once  
All the light before it’s gone  
Can I, can I give me love?  
Can I give me love?
Can I give me love?
Can I give me love?