Honestly

Honestly
I hate to be myself when I’m awake
False appearance on the outside
No, It’s all wrong
I’m not that kind of being
Would you leave?
If I reveal the deepest part of me?
Would you runaway like any others do
But you know
That I want you to stay
Hiding feelings keeping down
Stay in silence til it fades
Simple ways to save myself
But, now I notice something strange
I’m collapsed without a sound
What am I supposed to do?
Honestly
People asking after me
I wear a smile reply I’m fine
Truth has always been a burden
And now I barely hear myself
I’m the one who broke me down
What am I supposed to do?
Let it fade, is that’s just how it is?
Indoctrinating minds of mine to

Levitate from these ruins full in my head
Leave it all behind