If There Was A Time #2

I smile to each room that I enter
And am aware of choosing not to destroy
And meanwhile back at central command
The vague ache of being human takes it`s stand
The pits and tangles of patience and strength
The blessed blaze of reckless
senseless meaningless choices made
I still have those who know
I`m full of shit and love me anyways
And all I get to walk away with
is knowing this`ll all hit you someday
So I smile to each room I enter
And I smile to each room
I consciously don`t destroy