I've been up for three nights
With my head and my heart in a fist fight
Looking up at the flower moon
Wishing you could see the view
I'm so tired, but I can never sleep
Woke up crying from another dream
I've seen this one before
You leave me at the door
Broken record, watch you run away
I would never say it but I want you to stay
I see the warning signs
Ignore them every time
All I've ever known is walking the tightrope
Holding onto the illusion of control
I've been up for three nights
With my head and my heart in a fist fight
Underneath the flower moon
Wishing you could see the view
Tryna keep it all together
But we both know I'm not getting any better
Lonely in a crowded room
Only one I want is you
The illusion of control
Watch the color leaving from your face
Promising it won't always be this way
I wish I could pretend that I could trust again
One foot in and the other foot out
'Cause I'm too scared, if I jump, I'll drown
We've been trying not to hit the ground
But what goes up must come down
All I've ever known is walking the tightrope
Holding onto the illusion of control
I've been up for three nights
With my head and my heart in a fist fight
Underneath the flower moon
Wishing you could see the view
Tryna keep it all together
But we both know I'm not getting any better
Lonely in a crowded room
Only one I want is you
The illusion of control
It's so hard being hard wired
Voices in my head conspire
Telling me you're such a liar
Spreading like wildfire
It's so hard being hard wired
Voices in my head conspire
Telling me you're such a liar
Spreading like wildfire
I've been up for three nights
With my head and my heart in a fist fight
Underneath the flower moon
Wishing you could see the view
Tryna keep it all together
But we both know I'm not getting any better
Lonely in a crowded room
Only one I want is you
I've been up for three nights
'Cause walking the tightrope
Tryna keep it together
The illusion of control
(Сontrol, control, control, control)