1000 JULYS
(Jenkins, Cadogan)
planning my attack just before you come back around
maybe I'm wrong, but I don't know how to back down
I never fit in, I don't belong
but you know I doesn't matter when we feel strong
cause I'm a vampire y'all, we toast the blood of our enemies
you're still scaring me no, you're scaring me no
and we don't fit in
(we don't fit in)
wonder what it's like when you're living with someone like me
I'm a freak and I'm nervous when it's easy
feral days, and I'm sex crazed
I put it in with my with my animal ways
and that's the sign I was born to be living in
I ran around and gave the finger to the ritalin
you know you calm me down and I can't say why
you say goodbye and burn my eyes
you burn my eyes
a thousand julys
I hope you find
I'd give you words, but no words come to mind
but you turn me so cold, so I tell you lies
when you let me in, it's like a thousand julys
when you left, I felt the drop like a boom
wintertime all alone in your bedroom
I don't blame you, and I know I'm not your friend
how we live, young american
I guess I've always known
I'd be on my own, I'd be on my own
and I don't know why, I don't know why
a thousand julys
I know you'll find
I'd say the words, but no words come to mind
but you let me in , and I don't know why
but when you come, it's like a thousand julys
a thousand julys
a thousand julys
that's what you are
I'd tell you to come back now
but we've gone too far
and we've burned it out now
I don't even try
but I feel you gone
I lost a thousand julys