I spend a lot of time above water
In fact, I spend most of my time in my room
Lately that's made me wonder
if I've given up on trying to be someone new
Because I don't like who I see
each morning when I look in the mirror
In fact it's the only thing I fear
that I'm empty inside these bones
I'm not scared of ghosts
I embrace them all as friends
because one day I'll be dead
and they will know my name
So I've been counting down my life
existing in hours
to see what I have left
If I see 25, i'll be surprised
If I see 32, I'll take every letter I wrote to you
and bury them alive
If I see 44, well I haven't thought that far