forcing myself to breathe

I try hard to breathe in and out
Try to close my eyes
Try to meditate
‘Cuz I want to be
Relieved from these thoughts
Stimulation free
But I suck at doing that now
And that’s all on me
I can’t seem to chill
I can’t fall asleep
Always overthink
Rollercoaster brain
Aha aha aha aha
Aha aha aha
Aha aha aha
Forcing myself to breathe
Aha aha aha
Aha aha aha
Aha aha aha
I have a bit too many dreams
And I want them to
Turn to reality
Inequalities
Insecurities
Disappearing
Aha aha aha aha
Aha aha aha
Aha aha aha
Forcing myself to breathe
Aha aha aha
Aha aha aha
Aha aha aha