I sell my soul to feel alive again
Some days, I wish I could pretend
So sick of waking up in the mornings
I find myself praying to God again
I don't know if I hear a friend
'Cause it's just me doing the talking
I'm stuck inside this merry go round
Don't know if I wanna get out
What's so wrong with being honest?
'Cause I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say I'm fine, but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified
All my days feeling like weeks again
I find myself spiraling
With every turn
I lose a piece of my heart
Stuck inside this merry go round
Don't know if I wanna get out
What's so wrong with being honest?
'Cause I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say I'm fine, but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified
And I'm on my knees
Surrounded
Just underneath, I'm drowning
It is all a lie, and I'm terrified
I drink too much, I think too much
I barely like myself enough
I say I'm fine, but I hurt inside
I fall in love, I fuck it up
Then wonder what the fuck it was
It's all a lie, and I'm terrified